Monday, September 16, 2002

Here’s what always happens: I carry on fine with the synths and sequencers until about two days before the performance, when I decide that everything that I have put together — all of it — blows monkeys and I just want to destroy my gear. If history’s any indicator, this feeling will last until a couple days after the performance. And yet, two weeks from now I’ll (think I) remember how cool it was and I’ll start preparing for the next go round…

The questions I can’t get out of my head: Is this interesting? A waste of time? Fun? Boring? Does anyone give a shit? Will this ever lead anywhere? Why does my head hurt? Ugh. Makes a guy want to go back to watching “Cheers” reruns all night… ?